Saturday, September 30
> cold and lonely saturday
Its a cold and boring Saturday. I decided to stay home, lest i go out and spend money again. There's no one at home currently except dear Ebony who looks just as depressed as i am. Bored and lonely.
Sipping on hot Lipton tea and listening to Vonda Shepard as she sings my favourite song, Baby wont you break my heart slow. I especially love the chorus.
"I rather you be mean, then love and lie
I rather hear the truth, and have to say goodbye
I rather take the blow, at least then i will know
But baby dont you break my heart slow"
The entire song basically reflects how im feeling. Totally.
Yesterday after work, i met up with Ling, Huat & gf and Eleanor at Plaza Sing for dinner before we make our way down to Boat Quay and opened a bottle of Chivas at Starlight.
I didnt drink a lot last night, because i didnt wanna feel drunk and start being emo again. But it wasnt that successful, because i turned emo without being drunk. So that suck even more.
Fuck that anyway.
I havent seen Ling for like almost 7 months, since Huat's birthday chalet in March. He had changed, so much..
Dear Ling became round! Oh my gawd, i had quite a shock. Putting on 10kg within such a short span was really scary.
Havent seen Eleanor for a long time too!
First time meeting up with Huat's girlfriend. Nice girl!
Ling, Huat, Zhenjie and I are playing mahjong tonight over at my place. Let's just hope i win more money because im uber poor now.
I so wanted to go tanning this morning, but i was feeling lazy. Then when i was just about to drag my fat carrot legs to the washroom to wash up and prepare myself, the heaven decided to play a joke on me and started weeping so badly.
Now im feeling tired, so imma go catch a nap so i can keep myself awake tonight.
Its a cold and boring Saturday. I decided to stay home, lest i go out and spend money again. There's no one at home currently except dear Ebony who looks just as depressed as i am. Bored and lonely.
Sipping on hot Lipton tea and listening to Vonda Shepard as she sings my favourite song, Baby wont you break my heart slow. I especially love the chorus.
"I rather you be mean, then love and lie
I rather hear the truth, and have to say goodbye
I rather take the blow, at least then i will know
But baby dont you break my heart slow"
The entire song basically reflects how im feeling. Totally.
Yesterday after work, i met up with Ling, Huat & gf and Eleanor at Plaza Sing for dinner before we make our way down to Boat Quay and opened a bottle of Chivas at Starlight.
I didnt drink a lot last night, because i didnt wanna feel drunk and start being emo again. But it wasnt that successful, because i turned emo without being drunk. So that suck even more.
Fuck that anyway.
I havent seen Ling for like almost 7 months, since Huat's birthday chalet in March. He had changed, so much..
Dear Ling became round! Oh my gawd, i had quite a shock. Putting on 10kg within such a short span was really scary.
Havent seen Eleanor for a long time too!
First time meeting up with Huat's girlfriend. Nice girl!
Ling, Huat, Zhenjie and I are playing mahjong tonight over at my place. Let's just hope i win more money because im uber poor now.
I so wanted to go tanning this morning, but i was feeling lazy. Then when i was just about to drag my fat carrot legs to the washroom to wash up and prepare myself, the heaven decided to play a joke on me and started weeping so badly.
Now im feeling tired, so imma go catch a nap so i can keep myself awake tonight.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 4:28:00 pm
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> a story.
Let me tell you a story.
About a month back, a girl and a guy met while studying for the examinations. Though it wasnt the first time they met, but it was almost the first time they chat. Throughout the entire week, they saw each other everyday and spent about 10 hours together, sometimes with the company of other friends.
Initially, both of them had a knot in the heart untied. On a not so starry night, they sat by the beach and counted stars, talking about their agonies. Few days later on a much starry night, they sat by the beach at the same bench and counted stars once again, and talked about everything under the moonlight, but nothing much about their agonies.
And the next few days, they had a lot of fun irritating and tickling each other while they study. And slowly, they got to know each other better.
They chatted on the phone till wee hours. Not wanting to sleep though sometimes they ran out of topics to talk about especially when the girl isnt someone good at starting a conversation, lest to say making the conversation grow.
They had their first date a few days after the examinations ended. And then they met up in Zouk, then in town and when they were supposed to meet up again, a nightmare happened.
Throughout the times before the nightmare happened, the girl knew the guy couldnt get over his last relationship just yet. Theres so many things she knew but she just pretended that she was oblivious of it all. She kept everything within her, and kept both eyes closed, because ignorance is bliss, or so she thought.
She knew what he meant by "quite near" when she told him she used to live in Telok Kurau. She knew who he saw at the cafe in Zouk while they were walking towards it and yet he suddenly u-turn and walked out. She knew what was the cause of the nightmare that took place so suddenly. And she's almost 100% sure, that on that fateful day when they were supposed to meet, his handphone didnt die on him, but he chose to switch it off.
But instead, she pretended that she didnt know, neither did she wanna know. Cos the truth always hurt, doesnt it?
So, just out of the blue, they stopped contacting. Or rather, he stopped contacting her because he wanna play missing (ie missing in action, and not thinking of). The girl felt so lost, she didnt know what to do except to indulge in alcohol when she know she cant drink for nuts, just to make herself less sober and conscious of what exactly is going on.
The truth about the girl is, she spent more than 2 years to nurse a hurting past relationship and mend a brokened heart; lacked of confidence and trust in guys and love; couldn't bring herself to forget those pains and let go of the very much hurting past. During that 2 years due to her apprehension, she gave up many potential great guys. Just as when she could let go and start life anew, and slowly had a liking for that guy, she got hurt once again. What an irony.
Now tell me, how is the girl able to face this setback? She was crestfallen.
The girl gave the guy time to think and wanna leave an impression that everything was okay and she was playing it cool. As much as she wanted to message him and talk to him, she didnt. On one hand she was afraid that the guy might find her irritating, on the other, she didnt wanna give the impression that she needed him so badly.
So they stopped contacting. Until one day...
He messaged her again while she was at work, and tearing cheques from the letters. Upon seeing the message and tearing cheques at the same time, she tore a piece. Her heart started thumping, but she told herself not to reply, so she didnt.
Until 2 days later, she couldnt resist the temptation to talk to him anymore, she gave a little reply, which then came a few more messages exchanged. It was like a rollercoaster ride, too many troughs and peaks, and it all fluctuates at a very fast speed.
One day, the guy said he was wondering if they could get back like before. The girl was ecstatic, cos she thought he had made up his mind. But to play it cool and make it sure, she told him to think over it again.
Then, the guy was blowing hot and cold, leaving the girl in bewilderment and disorientation. She wanted and needed to know what exactly does the guy want so at least she would know whats the best next step to take. Sadly speaking, the guy didnt know what he wants either, or maybe, he didnt want to hurt the girl by saying "lets just be normal friends", emphasizing on the word 'normal'.
The girl could feel the pain almost everytime she's alone, everytime she's busy and stressed with work, everytime she heads to east coast, everytime she heads to kallang, everytime she's drinking at the pub. Well its most of the time in fact. All she did, was to just keep it all to herself, suffocating herself with all the doubts and queries, pains and hurts.
I seriously dont know how long she can take it.
She so wanted to have a good talk with him, settling it once and for all. But yet, she's afraid of what the outcome would be. Whenever she wanna talk to him about it, she lost the courage the moment she tried to speak. And she was afraid of pressurising the guy, again.
She wants to know whats the most optimal option to take. She wants to know what to do. She didnt like the feeling of being lost and stranded. She dont even know how to cry anymore.
Let me tell you a story.
About a month back, a girl and a guy met while studying for the examinations. Though it wasnt the first time they met, but it was almost the first time they chat. Throughout the entire week, they saw each other everyday and spent about 10 hours together, sometimes with the company of other friends.
Initially, both of them had a knot in the heart untied. On a not so starry night, they sat by the beach and counted stars, talking about their agonies. Few days later on a much starry night, they sat by the beach at the same bench and counted stars once again, and talked about everything under the moonlight, but nothing much about their agonies.
And the next few days, they had a lot of fun irritating and tickling each other while they study. And slowly, they got to know each other better.
They chatted on the phone till wee hours. Not wanting to sleep though sometimes they ran out of topics to talk about especially when the girl isnt someone good at starting a conversation, lest to say making the conversation grow.
They had their first date a few days after the examinations ended. And then they met up in Zouk, then in town and when they were supposed to meet up again, a nightmare happened.
Throughout the times before the nightmare happened, the girl knew the guy couldnt get over his last relationship just yet. Theres so many things she knew but she just pretended that she was oblivious of it all. She kept everything within her, and kept both eyes closed, because ignorance is bliss, or so she thought.
She knew what he meant by "quite near" when she told him she used to live in Telok Kurau. She knew who he saw at the cafe in Zouk while they were walking towards it and yet he suddenly u-turn and walked out. She knew what was the cause of the nightmare that took place so suddenly. And she's almost 100% sure, that on that fateful day when they were supposed to meet, his handphone didnt die on him, but he chose to switch it off.
But instead, she pretended that she didnt know, neither did she wanna know. Cos the truth always hurt, doesnt it?
So, just out of the blue, they stopped contacting. Or rather, he stopped contacting her because he wanna play missing (ie missing in action, and not thinking of). The girl felt so lost, she didnt know what to do except to indulge in alcohol when she know she cant drink for nuts, just to make herself less sober and conscious of what exactly is going on.
The truth about the girl is, she spent more than 2 years to nurse a hurting past relationship and mend a brokened heart; lacked of confidence and trust in guys and love; couldn't bring herself to forget those pains and let go of the very much hurting past. During that 2 years due to her apprehension, she gave up many potential great guys. Just as when she could let go and start life anew, and slowly had a liking for that guy, she got hurt once again. What an irony.
Now tell me, how is the girl able to face this setback? She was crestfallen.
The girl gave the guy time to think and wanna leave an impression that everything was okay and she was playing it cool. As much as she wanted to message him and talk to him, she didnt. On one hand she was afraid that the guy might find her irritating, on the other, she didnt wanna give the impression that she needed him so badly.
So they stopped contacting. Until one day...
He messaged her again while she was at work, and tearing cheques from the letters. Upon seeing the message and tearing cheques at the same time, she tore a piece. Her heart started thumping, but she told herself not to reply, so she didnt.
Until 2 days later, she couldnt resist the temptation to talk to him anymore, she gave a little reply, which then came a few more messages exchanged. It was like a rollercoaster ride, too many troughs and peaks, and it all fluctuates at a very fast speed.
One day, the guy said he was wondering if they could get back like before. The girl was ecstatic, cos she thought he had made up his mind. But to play it cool and make it sure, she told him to think over it again.
Then, the guy was blowing hot and cold, leaving the girl in bewilderment and disorientation. She wanted and needed to know what exactly does the guy want so at least she would know whats the best next step to take. Sadly speaking, the guy didnt know what he wants either, or maybe, he didnt want to hurt the girl by saying "lets just be normal friends", emphasizing on the word 'normal'.
The girl could feel the pain almost everytime she's alone, everytime she's busy and stressed with work, everytime she heads to east coast, everytime she heads to kallang, everytime she's drinking at the pub. Well its most of the time in fact. All she did, was to just keep it all to herself, suffocating herself with all the doubts and queries, pains and hurts.
I seriously dont know how long she can take it.
She so wanted to have a good talk with him, settling it once and for all. But yet, she's afraid of what the outcome would be. Whenever she wanna talk to him about it, she lost the courage the moment she tried to speak. And she was afraid of pressurising the guy, again.
She wants to know whats the most optimal option to take. She wants to know what to do. She didnt like the feeling of being lost and stranded. She dont even know how to cry anymore.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:48:00 am
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Wednesday, September 27
> surprise me pleaseeeee!
What say you, when you woke up late for work, rushed like one crazy women on the loose, skipped breakfast and left the house in a big hurry, squeezed up that freaking bus which seemed to take ages to arrive, went up to your office, walked to your desk and see breakfast on your table, with no note, no name, no nothing.
How would you feel? Bewildered, confused, shocked, curious and a tinge of sweetness, making your heart flutter? Totally.
Is it just me? Or am i just lucky? Ive been receiving little surprises these days. Not that i dont like it, i loveeeeeeee it in fact. More surprises please!
Last night, i met up with Zero after like a million years. We sat by the playground and chatted till about 12 midnight when my fatigue took over and i had to report to lalaland. So we parted.
Had been waiting for the day, and it finally arrived. But the truth be told, human would never be satisfied. Call me greedy, i might be. But all i wanted, was just to see.
What say you, when you woke up late for work, rushed like one crazy women on the loose, skipped breakfast and left the house in a big hurry, squeezed up that freaking bus which seemed to take ages to arrive, went up to your office, walked to your desk and see breakfast on your table, with no note, no name, no nothing.
How would you feel? Bewildered, confused, shocked, curious and a tinge of sweetness, making your heart flutter? Totally.
Is it just me? Or am i just lucky? Ive been receiving little surprises these days. Not that i dont like it, i loveeeeeeee it in fact. More surprises please!
Last night, i met up with Zero after like a million years. We sat by the playground and chatted till about 12 midnight when my fatigue took over and i had to report to lalaland. So we parted.
Had been waiting for the day, and it finally arrived. But the truth be told, human would never be satisfied. Call me greedy, i might be. But all i wanted, was just to see.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:14:00 pm
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Monday, September 25
> so freaking random.
My sis and i both share a love-hate relationship.
She's such an asshole at times. And she left me alone to die in the room last night. I had to sleep alone on that king sized bed. I felt soooooooooo lonely!
And i know she's gonna kill me for this. HAHAHA
Anyway, i knew Hady Mirza's gonna be the next Singapore Idol. I told you i told you!
My thighs are still aching from the jog i had with Adrian last evening at East Coast after i met up with Raymond. Been so long since i last jogged. Was almost dying just after 20 minutes.
Raymond told me about his NS life and yes, all the ghost stories he encountered in his bunk. I feel so sad for him. =|
This is so random i know.
My sis and i both share a love-hate relationship.
She's such an asshole at times. And she left me alone to die in the room last night. I had to sleep alone on that king sized bed. I felt soooooooooo lonely!
And i know she's gonna kill me for this. HAHAHA
Anyway, i knew Hady Mirza's gonna be the next Singapore Idol. I told you i told you!
My thighs are still aching from the jog i had with Adrian last evening at East Coast after i met up with Raymond. Been so long since i last jogged. Was almost dying just after 20 minutes.
Raymond told me about his NS life and yes, all the ghost stories he encountered in his bunk. I feel so sad for him. =|
This is so random i know.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:01:00 pm
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> A penny for my thoughts.
I was talking to Albin on msn last night, after many weeks and months since we last contacted ever since he started work in Malaysia. I miss those days when we work together man!
He made me ask and answer myself a few questions that requires a lot of thinking with a calm heart. And i couldnt really find the answer because in actual fact, im one big contradiction.
So i told him that my heart and mind just doesnt seem to agree and go together, and asked him if i should follow my heart or let my mind take control. And all he said was, "i cannot teach u what to do, amber is the way she is and will have her way to sort her probs out... (",)"
That made me felt very lost all over again. But of course, there was a continuation and he made his stand pretty clear. Likewise, i know that's what im supposed to do. Letting the mind be in control. I wish i could tear my heart open and let it just die.
"Dont you ever understand what im trying to say, dont you ever know that i mean it this way. Dont you ever think about the times we had, and when the blood flows, its the time we all regret."
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I know its selfish to make someone else wait just because i need time to sort out my thoughts when obviously the latter was a better offer. And im sorry, but im glad you could understand. But dont be too nice to me Mr A, cos that way, i'll feel worst.
I was talking to Albin on msn last night, after many weeks and months since we last contacted ever since he started work in Malaysia. I miss those days when we work together man!
He made me ask and answer myself a few questions that requires a lot of thinking with a calm heart. And i couldnt really find the answer because in actual fact, im one big contradiction.
So i told him that my heart and mind just doesnt seem to agree and go together, and asked him if i should follow my heart or let my mind take control. And all he said was, "i cannot teach u what to do, amber is the way she is and will have her way to sort her probs out... (",)"
That made me felt very lost all over again. But of course, there was a continuation and he made his stand pretty clear. Likewise, i know that's what im supposed to do. Letting the mind be in control. I wish i could tear my heart open and let it just die.
"Dont you ever understand what im trying to say, dont you ever know that i mean it this way. Dont you ever think about the times we had, and when the blood flows, its the time we all regret."
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I know its selfish to make someone else wait just because i need time to sort out my thoughts when obviously the latter was a better offer. And im sorry, but im glad you could understand. But dont be too nice to me Mr A, cos that way, i'll feel worst.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 7:37:00 am
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Sunday, September 24
> gone with my weekends.
Your office lady.
Weekends gone once again.
The only times i can enjoy at any time of the week started from Friday nights. So on Friday after work, i being ms-nice, took a train down from City Hall all the way to Tampines with Joyce and met Shalyn while waiting for Adrian.
Imagine meeting 2 of your bestest friends one after another? That's the most shiok feeling ever! Shalyn and i combed the whole of Century Square and Tampines Mall in 45 minutes in search of a white long tube top. That's pretty fast isnt it? But we ran like a mad woman from one shop to the other. Damn hilarious!
My female best friend.
Then, Adrian came to join us for dinner and he sent Shalyn to work at MoMo while we drove down to Marina Square for a movie. We had 2 hours to waste before Miami Vice starts at 0040hours. Jing Yang called and he was with his girlfriend and my sister and a friend. So, Adrian and i met them for a while before we make a move to the esplanade.
My male best friend.
Had long great talks that turned me emo, took pictures and wasted 2 hours over there. When it was about time for our movie, the both of us were already freaking tired.
Just da two of us at da esplanade. Pictures perfect!
And so, i fell asleep halfway thru the movie. =(( I seriously thought that Miami Vice was good and was about to rate it 4 outta 5 popcorns but while leaving the theatre, some guys behind me said it suck, but they speak like some little ahbengs so that just didnt affect my opinion. So i turned and asked Adrian how was the movie and he said it isnt that nice either. I just dont get it. I thought it was good! So, i'll still stick it to 4 outta 5 popcorns. You tell me how you feel after catching it aye!
I woke up after 3 hours of sleep on Saturday morning for school. I was so freaking tired! After that, had lunch and headed to Lucas's for mahjong together with Denise and Stanley. We played till like 7pm and my eyes were automatically shutting. Cabbed home and slept at 8pm, switching on my alarm at 12midnight so i could wake up and meet Raymond for supper after he finished jamming.
So guess what? I slept all the way till this morning 1130. WTH!!! Am i a pig or what?!
So i wasted the entire Saturday night. It was so important to me okay! And Raymond finally booked out after 2 weeks of torture. But its okay, cos im meeting him in a while at Parkway. Weeeeeee! Waiting for him to come pick me up, hence this senseless post.
Edwin and friends are over at Thailand now and it kinda suck because there's a curfew and the place is pretty chaotic now. =(
Your office lady.
Weekends gone once again.
The only times i can enjoy at any time of the week started from Friday nights. So on Friday after work, i being ms-nice, took a train down from City Hall all the way to Tampines with Joyce and met Shalyn while waiting for Adrian.
Imagine meeting 2 of your bestest friends one after another? That's the most shiok feeling ever! Shalyn and i combed the whole of Century Square and Tampines Mall in 45 minutes in search of a white long tube top. That's pretty fast isnt it? But we ran like a mad woman from one shop to the other. Damn hilarious!
My female best friend.
Then, Adrian came to join us for dinner and he sent Shalyn to work at MoMo while we drove down to Marina Square for a movie. We had 2 hours to waste before Miami Vice starts at 0040hours. Jing Yang called and he was with his girlfriend and my sister and a friend. So, Adrian and i met them for a while before we make a move to the esplanade.
My male best friend.
Had long great talks that turned me emo, took pictures and wasted 2 hours over there. When it was about time for our movie, the both of us were already freaking tired.
Just da two of us at da esplanade. Pictures perfect!
And so, i fell asleep halfway thru the movie. =(( I seriously thought that Miami Vice was good and was about to rate it 4 outta 5 popcorns but while leaving the theatre, some guys behind me said it suck, but they speak like some little ahbengs so that just didnt affect my opinion. So i turned and asked Adrian how was the movie and he said it isnt that nice either. I just dont get it. I thought it was good! So, i'll still stick it to 4 outta 5 popcorns. You tell me how you feel after catching it aye!
I woke up after 3 hours of sleep on Saturday morning for school. I was so freaking tired! After that, had lunch and headed to Lucas's for mahjong together with Denise and Stanley. We played till like 7pm and my eyes were automatically shutting. Cabbed home and slept at 8pm, switching on my alarm at 12midnight so i could wake up and meet Raymond for supper after he finished jamming.
So guess what? I slept all the way till this morning 1130. WTH!!! Am i a pig or what?!
So i wasted the entire Saturday night. It was so important to me okay! And Raymond finally booked out after 2 weeks of torture. But its okay, cos im meeting him in a while at Parkway. Weeeeeee! Waiting for him to come pick me up, hence this senseless post.
Edwin and friends are over at Thailand now and it kinda suck because there's a curfew and the place is pretty chaotic now. =(
sealed-with-a-kiss < 1:10:00 pm
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Wednesday, September 20
> imma sucker for surprises.
I had a long day at work today. There's just too many things to do and i had to stare at the computer for hours and piles of documents and figures. Not that im complaining, im just totally worn out. My colleagues are really nice people. One gave me a packet of ribena and guava, while the other gave me some mooncakes. I kinda love my workplace.
All i wanted to do when i knock off at 6pm was to go home, take a long bath and just slouch in front of the television and glue my butt on the sofa. While i walked towards the direction of my block, a white Honda with a familiar number plate caught my attention. As i walked nearer, the door of the driver seat opened, and out came a big surprise.
Its been long since someone surprise me like that. Let's just call him Mr A. I was taken back, it was such a nice surprise visit, and my weariness seemed to vanish outta sudden.
Then, we had dinner at East Coast and strolled by the beach. We sat by the sea for some star gazing, and long deep chats. That moment was totally what i needed. To get away from the hectic lifestyle ive been living, and just sit by the beach, let the wind mess up my hair, feel the breeze and hear the sound of the waves. That moment, was like one in a million.
Now that im home, im starting to miss those moments again. All thanks to work, ive to be home so early. Im so gonna sleep right after my bath, cos im freaking tired.
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NUM 3rd anniversary party at Zouk tomorrow. Its so freaking tempting and i was on the guest list. But i told the person in charge to strike off my name cos i wouldnt be there for sure. If i dont have to work on Friday, i'll definately go. Argh!!
Thanks for that surprise visit. Ive enjoyed myself. =))
I had a long day at work today. There's just too many things to do and i had to stare at the computer for hours and piles of documents and figures. Not that im complaining, im just totally worn out. My colleagues are really nice people. One gave me a packet of ribena and guava, while the other gave me some mooncakes. I kinda love my workplace.
All i wanted to do when i knock off at 6pm was to go home, take a long bath and just slouch in front of the television and glue my butt on the sofa. While i walked towards the direction of my block, a white Honda with a familiar number plate caught my attention. As i walked nearer, the door of the driver seat opened, and out came a big surprise.
Its been long since someone surprise me like that. Let's just call him Mr A. I was taken back, it was such a nice surprise visit, and my weariness seemed to vanish outta sudden.
Then, we had dinner at East Coast and strolled by the beach. We sat by the sea for some star gazing, and long deep chats. That moment was totally what i needed. To get away from the hectic lifestyle ive been living, and just sit by the beach, let the wind mess up my hair, feel the breeze and hear the sound of the waves. That moment, was like one in a million.
Now that im home, im starting to miss those moments again. All thanks to work, ive to be home so early. Im so gonna sleep right after my bath, cos im freaking tired.
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NUM 3rd anniversary party at Zouk tomorrow. Its so freaking tempting and i was on the guest list. But i told the person in charge to strike off my name cos i wouldnt be there for sure. If i dont have to work on Friday, i'll definately go. Argh!!
Thanks for that surprise visit. Ive enjoyed myself. =))
sealed-with-a-kiss < 9:53:00 pm
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Monday, September 18
> fuck insecurities.
19092006 2150hours
Now, i feel like a complete fool, a total idiot and add in the word fiasco.
I'll close both my eyes and let my heart run wild.
The door of entry closes and would be locked by this Sunday. Take it, or leave it.
over. period. gone. the end.
19092006 2150hours
over. period. gone. the end.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:14:00 pm
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Sunday, September 17
> My precious weekend.
So, the weekend i had been looking forward to is almost gone. All i did on Friday and Saturday was incredibly routine. Town-midnight mahjong.
On Friday after work, Denise, Bird, Edwin, Leroy, Siwei and i met up in town for dinner and lotsa catching up about our work and the environment. Had dinner at Big O which kinda suck, but my bacon sandwich wasnt that bad.
Tons of cute dogs wallpaper!
Denise and i. Look at how big my face looks beside Denise. =(
Walked around town, shopped a little and it was decided to have a session of mahjong over at my place. We played till 2-ish am.
Then came Saturday when i met Kenny bro and Kevin at Parkway for dinner. We then proceeded to town to meet up the BBC. And as usual, there wasnt anything much to do and there were no nice seatings for the movies even at 1-ish am. So, Kev and Kenny decided to have a session of mahjong over at my place. This time, we played till daybreak. I was zonked out. Freaking tired!
So, i slept at 8.30am with $20 richer and woke up at like 2pm. Damn! That's freaking early. And im now eating the cheesecake my sis made yesterday.
You know, i really hate cheesecake though i love cheese. But my sis had been baking cheesecake and i had to try em. Maybe after more attempts of tasting cheesecake, i might just grow to like it. But this cake today is pretty good. Not that nua-nua which i totally loathe.
People say im one brave girl, daring enough to go all out to fight for my happiness and pursue what i want, so i would leave no regrets in my life. I learn while i grow, and i dont wanna make the same mistakes twice. But then again, i dont think im any where near brave nor strong. As much as i want to be like that, after all i'm still just a barbecued marshmellow..
So, the weekend i had been looking forward to is almost gone. All i did on Friday and Saturday was incredibly routine. Town-midnight mahjong.
On Friday after work, Denise, Bird, Edwin, Leroy, Siwei and i met up in town for dinner and lotsa catching up about our work and the environment. Had dinner at Big O which kinda suck, but my bacon sandwich wasnt that bad.
Tons of cute dogs wallpaper!
Denise and i. Look at how big my face looks beside Denise. =(
Walked around town, shopped a little and it was decided to have a session of mahjong over at my place. We played till 2-ish am.
Then came Saturday when i met Kenny bro and Kevin at Parkway for dinner. We then proceeded to town to meet up the BBC. And as usual, there wasnt anything much to do and there were no nice seatings for the movies even at 1-ish am. So, Kev and Kenny decided to have a session of mahjong over at my place. This time, we played till daybreak. I was zonked out. Freaking tired!
So, i slept at 8.30am with $20 richer and woke up at like 2pm. Damn! That's freaking early. And im now eating the cheesecake my sis made yesterday.
You know, i really hate cheesecake though i love cheese. But my sis had been baking cheesecake and i had to try em. Maybe after more attempts of tasting cheesecake, i might just grow to like it. But this cake today is pretty good. Not that nua-nua which i totally loathe.
People say im one brave girl, daring enough to go all out to fight for my happiness and pursue what i want, so i would leave no regrets in my life. I learn while i grow, and i dont wanna make the same mistakes twice. But then again, i dont think im any where near brave nor strong. As much as i want to be like that, after all i'm still just a barbecued marshmellow..
sealed-with-a-kiss < 2:43:00 pm
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Thursday, September 14
> Internship kills
My work is pretty hectic, a lot of stuffs to do and learn but my supervisor and colleagues are really nice people. Friendly and helpful. Time passes pretty fast during office hours because theres just too much to do and learn within a short period of time. And that's that for work.
Ive been sleeping really early every night because i gotta wake up at 6.30am though work starts at 8.30am and its only 10 minutes bus ride from my place. All thanks to the jam and inability to squeeze up the bus in the mornings. How i wish mr chauffeur would be there every morning.
And that's me after a long day of work. I think i've put on weight. So, Weitian and i are gonna diet during this 3 months, and at the same time i can save up for my Aussie trip next year. yay!
Some pictures.
Josh and i. Reminiscing the day on 155 aye? But actually, i dont remember those days at all. The earliest thing i could remember was outside Roxy Square where this funny guy pointed to me the direction of where my friends were. Damn joker sial!
My bestie Shalyn, on our date after a long long time since we last met. Please look at our contrast in colour. tsk. Dear Ms Tong, time to hit the pool with me at da condo!
Ahh yes, the dim sum buffet 15 of us had. Dont be mistaken, those were not all. This was only the first serving. The table was never empty. I think there were 3 or 4 rounds of such. Am drooling already!
So, the examination results were out on my first day of internship. Thank God i survived all 4 modules. Thank God i passed CRA though with only a B (and to think i hope to secure a B+ from coursework). So my results varied, ive gotten different results for different modules, ranging from B to Z. Quite glad actually cos my gpa increased! *screams. Im one more step closer to reaching the min. requirement for local uni. *screams louder.
And some joker, whom i seriously dont know who, and would very much like to know who, sent me an sms via online saying "Temasek Polytechnic AY 2006/07 Examination results for Lin Ruoxuan AMBER. Please come back to take your sub paper!"
-.- I could see it was a prank from the first look because i received my results earier than this sms was sent. Secondly, Amber wasnt in the school's computer system. Thirdly, its supp paper (short for supplementary paper), not sub.
So hello Mr/Ms Joker, please own up! So i can do it to you the nxt time we receive our exam results. HAHA!!
Okay, time to round up those chats online and go to sleep. I just cant imagine this. I used to sleep earliest at like 4am. And now, its not even half past 10. Damn no life!
My work is pretty hectic, a lot of stuffs to do and learn but my supervisor and colleagues are really nice people. Friendly and helpful. Time passes pretty fast during office hours because theres just too much to do and learn within a short period of time. And that's that for work.
Ive been sleeping really early every night because i gotta wake up at 6.30am though work starts at 8.30am and its only 10 minutes bus ride from my place. All thanks to the jam and inability to squeeze up the bus in the mornings. How i wish mr chauffeur would be there every morning.
And that's me after a long day of work. I think i've put on weight. So, Weitian and i are gonna diet during this 3 months, and at the same time i can save up for my Aussie trip next year. yay!
Some pictures.
Josh and i. Reminiscing the day on 155 aye? But actually, i dont remember those days at all. The earliest thing i could remember was outside Roxy Square where this funny guy pointed to me the direction of where my friends were. Damn joker sial!
My bestie Shalyn, on our date after a long long time since we last met. Please look at our contrast in colour. tsk. Dear Ms Tong, time to hit the pool with me at da condo!
Ahh yes, the dim sum buffet 15 of us had. Dont be mistaken, those were not all. This was only the first serving. The table was never empty. I think there were 3 or 4 rounds of such. Am drooling already!
So, the examination results were out on my first day of internship. Thank God i survived all 4 modules. Thank God i passed CRA though with only a B (and to think i hope to secure a B+ from coursework). So my results varied, ive gotten different results for different modules, ranging from B to Z. Quite glad actually cos my gpa increased! *screams. Im one more step closer to reaching the min. requirement for local uni. *screams louder.
And some joker, whom i seriously dont know who, and would very much like to know who, sent me an sms via online saying "Temasek Polytechnic AY 2006/07 Examination results for Lin Ruoxuan AMBER. Please come back to take your sub paper!"
-.- I could see it was a prank from the first look because i received my results earier than this sms was sent. Secondly, Amber wasnt in the school's computer system. Thirdly, its supp paper (short for supplementary paper), not sub.
So hello Mr/Ms Joker, please own up! So i can do it to you the nxt time we receive our exam results. HAHA!!
Okay, time to round up those chats online and go to sleep. I just cant imagine this. I used to sleep earliest at like 4am. And now, its not even half past 10. Damn no life!
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:12:00 pm
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Tuesday, September 12
> Last day of holiday madness
A long warm bathe perks me up totally.
Many things happened within a short span and today, i made another 2 decisions in my life.
Both situations are totally different, except that the outcome turns out to be the same. And that is just to give it up and carry on life as per normal. Enough said.
I woke up at 7am today with another minor hangover. Had drinks with Royston last night which got me ended up puking all over so badly. Thank God i didnt puke in his car. I dont know when i started seeking pleasure and drowning myself with alcohol everytime im feeling low. And that's not a very good thing because i still cant drink for nuts. And i realised that a depressed person gets drunk much faster than when that person is feeling normal. Suck like totally.
Fuck those emo thoughts already.
So, today was yet another happening day. Went to school early in the morning to check out our internship placement. Im gonna start my SIP at Suntec City this coming Wednesday, doing accounts which is totally, WTF. Im never good at those stuffs. But frankly speaking, im never good at any.
I thought with the pay of SGD 550 per month was rather cool already when i realised Denise got SGD 700 being in the Mutual Funds Admin department and Eileen got SGD 800 for just doing data admin. OMG. My heart nearly flew. But then again, it beats better than getting the minimum SGD 440 so i should be grateful and contented already. Hell yeah.
After the briefing and all, we had half a mahjong game at Denise's place before Bird drives all of us down to China Square for dim sum buffet at the Teahouse. We ran from the carpark all the way there which is pretty far because we were all damn hungry and left with only about 1 hour because we were late all thanks to the bad bad traffic jam.
The buffet was helluva gratifying. My 3 weeks of intensive dieting went down the drain totally. But i didnt really care cos all i wanted was to binge eating to make myself feel better. Then, 14 of us caught Singapore Dreaming over at Plaza. I rate it only 3 stars. Catch it if u just wanna support a local movie.
Met up with Edwin and friends yet again over in town. Thank God they kept me accompanied all night long. Chill, had supper at River Valley and then some shopping over at Mustafa.
I know i ought to go get some sleep now and try to adjust to normal human sleeping timing, but i dont think i can do it still. So, imma go catch some tv now.
A long warm bathe perks me up totally.
Many things happened within a short span and today, i made another 2 decisions in my life.
Both situations are totally different, except that the outcome turns out to be the same. And that is just to give it up and carry on life as per normal. Enough said.
I woke up at 7am today with another minor hangover. Had drinks with Royston last night which got me ended up puking all over so badly. Thank God i didnt puke in his car. I dont know when i started seeking pleasure and drowning myself with alcohol everytime im feeling low. And that's not a very good thing because i still cant drink for nuts. And i realised that a depressed person gets drunk much faster than when that person is feeling normal. Suck like totally.
Fuck those emo thoughts already.
So, today was yet another happening day. Went to school early in the morning to check out our internship placement. Im gonna start my SIP at Suntec City this coming Wednesday, doing accounts which is totally, WTF. Im never good at those stuffs. But frankly speaking, im never good at any.
I thought with the pay of SGD 550 per month was rather cool already when i realised Denise got SGD 700 being in the Mutual Funds Admin department and Eileen got SGD 800 for just doing data admin. OMG. My heart nearly flew. But then again, it beats better than getting the minimum SGD 440 so i should be grateful and contented already. Hell yeah.
After the briefing and all, we had half a mahjong game at Denise's place before Bird drives all of us down to China Square for dim sum buffet at the Teahouse. We ran from the carpark all the way there which is pretty far because we were all damn hungry and left with only about 1 hour because we were late all thanks to the bad bad traffic jam.
The buffet was helluva gratifying. My 3 weeks of intensive dieting went down the drain totally. But i didnt really care cos all i wanted was to binge eating to make myself feel better. Then, 14 of us caught Singapore Dreaming over at Plaza. I rate it only 3 stars. Catch it if u just wanna support a local movie.
Met up with Edwin and friends yet again over in town. Thank God they kept me accompanied all night long. Chill, had supper at River Valley and then some shopping over at Mustafa.
I know i ought to go get some sleep now and try to adjust to normal human sleeping timing, but i dont think i can do it still. So, imma go catch some tv now.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 2:37:00 am
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Sunday, September 10
> total trash.
Have you ever tried drinking alone at the pub? Hmmm, i guess the feeling might be pretty cool.
Yesterday late noon i met up with Shalyn in town. But she was freaking late so i walked towards Paragon and looked for Edwin at his workplace. Walked around the mall and bought a polo tee for my dad's birthday, which so happens to be today. Happy 57th dad!
Had a great long chat with Shalyn with snapple apple and viceroy at Coffee Bean followed by dinner at Kobayashi and finally, The Devil Wears Prada. I love those shoes and trench coats and bags! Its a total girl movie and that guy sitting behind me was damn irritating. Big time.
I'll leave whatever that happens after the movie in my black book. Yes, thats right.
So, its Sunday once again. My holidays have almost come to an end. Checking on the things i did this week to make sure ive done what im supposed to do.
Have you ever tried drinking alone at the pub? Hmmm, i guess the feeling might be pretty cool.
Yesterday late noon i met up with Shalyn in town. But she was freaking late so i walked towards Paragon and looked for Edwin at his workplace. Walked around the mall and bought a polo tee for my dad's birthday, which so happens to be today. Happy 57th dad!
Had a great long chat with Shalyn with snapple apple and viceroy at Coffee Bean followed by dinner at Kobayashi and finally, The Devil Wears Prada. I love those shoes and trench coats and bags! Its a total girl movie and that guy sitting behind me was damn irritating. Big time.
I'll leave whatever that happens after the movie in my black book. Yes, thats right.
So, its Sunday once again. My holidays have almost come to an end. Checking on the things i did this week to make sure ive done what im supposed to do.
- Class gathering
- Swimming + tanning with Denise
- Celine's and Edwin's birthday dinner
- Overnight mahjongs
- Clubbing with Tess and friends.
- Movies
- Met Kusa
- Met Zero
- Met Edwin
- Met Jeffrey
- Met Shalyn
- Met Raymond for supper before he enlists
- Met Wayne for supper
- Met Joshua Kho
- Met Wally
- Met Huatchin
I think thats about all. Well, i didnt get to meet up with Kenny bro and what happened to the JB trip with Shawnie? Geez!
I havent seen Joshua for a freaking long time. And it was just so last minute that he gave me a lift to my condo early Friday morning. Have fun in Taiwan heh! Dont forget my sausages. Pictures up when im less lazy. heh
I had a freaking large glass of Hoegaarden last night and i actually managed to finish it all. Of cos, that comes with a splitting headache and spinning images and now, a minor hangover. Thank God i survived.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 2:03:00 pm
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Friday, September 8
> On a sunny Friday morning..
Ah yes, i only slept for 2 hours after a long long night of mahjong with blahblah, blahblah and blahblah. I lost freaking lot of money. Was a scary night. But nvm, in life, its either you win, or you lose.
So why did i sleep for only 2 hours? Because i realised that my holidays are coming to an end soon and i shouldnt waste time sleeping. So im meeting Denise supposedly at 12 for a good tanning trip at my condo. But i guess she overslept, so we're meeting at 1 instead.
And i just realised that blahblah is with blahblah, kinda expected but still a shock. Thank God im my life now appeared someone else, if not i would definately sulk and pout and cry and whine and curse and swear and be damn depressed and moody. Not like its not affecting me, but i think i can still handle my emotions right now. But WHY?!?!?!?!
I think i kinda enjoyed my week thus far, sorta had almost everything done on my agenda except the JB trip with Shawnie and friends. Booohooooo
Oh gawd, i still have an hour to spare, should i go back to bed? *yawns.
Ah yes, i only slept for 2 hours after a long long night of mahjong with blahblah, blahblah and blahblah. I lost freaking lot of money. Was a scary night. But nvm, in life, its either you win, or you lose.
So why did i sleep for only 2 hours? Because i realised that my holidays are coming to an end soon and i shouldnt waste time sleeping. So im meeting Denise supposedly at 12 for a good tanning trip at my condo. But i guess she overslept, so we're meeting at 1 instead.
And i just realised that blahblah is with blahblah, kinda expected but still a shock. Thank God im my life now appeared someone else, if not i would definately sulk and pout and cry and whine and curse and swear and be damn depressed and moody. Not like its not affecting me, but i think i can still handle my emotions right now. But WHY?!?!?!?!
I think i kinda enjoyed my week thus far, sorta had almost everything done on my agenda except the JB trip with Shawnie and friends. Booohooooo
Oh gawd, i still have an hour to spare, should i go back to bed? *yawns.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 10:54:00 am
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Thursday, September 7
> cruelty and complications.
I am feeling fucking depressed. Yes, continue to leave me alone because that's when i'll get used to how im feeling and then just fuck care it. I dont think ive done anything wrong to deserve this, but if this is what you want, then fine. Im oh so cool about it. Because i give no shit about you anymore. Pathetic people.
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Im so in love with this song all over again. Because its exactly how im feeling now.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
I am feeling fucking depressed. Yes, continue to leave me alone because that's when i'll get used to how im feeling and then just fuck care it. I dont think ive done anything wrong to deserve this, but if this is what you want, then fine. Im oh so cool about it. Because i give no shit about you anymore. Pathetic people.
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Im so in love with this song all over again. Because its exactly how im feeling now.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
sealed-with-a-kiss < 6:07:00 pm
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> Happening day yesterday.
Zouk last night was sardine-packed. Even Mambo is freaking packed. The initial plan was to go down with Edwin while he meets his friend and i meet Tess after our 'date', but Edwin and friends didnt turn up in Zouk in the end. And initially the plan was just to club and go crazy, just the two of us. But Tess's boyfriend and friends came as well, so we were dancing in a group. Not high, not crazy, but still fun.
Lotsa familiar faces at Zouk last night. I saw Sally, Justin, Meiting, Royston, Shunxiong and friends, Zero, Weikiat, Benjamin, my sister's friend like Eunice and Kelvin, Ernest, and Jeffrey my lucky star who got so drunk i dont know what to do and how to take care of him. Still quite amazed by the fact that he could go around looking for me despite being so blur. Alvin is supposed to be there but he didnt turn up, Guoliang is supposed to be there but he didnt turn up either. =((
Meiting and I. When i saw her with Weikiat and friends she was already high.
Tess and I. The one im supposed to stick to all night, but it turned out otherwise.
Royston and I. Mr policeman who forced me to drink beer when im on hard liquor. grrrr.
Zero and I at the dancefloor. Freaking blur face.
This is the ultimate. Jeffrey and I. He was so damn drunk and he kept asking me to take a picture. But just look at him!! He cant even look straight and open his eyes and smile.
Shared a cab home with Shunxiong and friends.
The moment i got home at 4.30am and changed my status in msn to online, Raymond messaged me and we decided to head out for a drink. So without bathing, no nothing, i left the house again.
Had a short chat about an hour, 2 cans of drinks each, bitched around, and feel emo as he's going to enlist this Saturday. SO DEPRESSING!!
And to prepare himself, he went for a haircut. To get used to the botak look, he had a mohawk style. Cant really see that clearly in the picture but i screamed the moment i saw him in the car. It isnt that bad actually. Gonna miss this tall man here, all the late night suppers and chilling at the studio and all. Ahhhhh!
Oh yes, before partying the night away, I had a great time with Edwin. Dinner at Kenny Rogers, followed by drinks at Harry's and then we strolled to the merlion with another of his friend and chilled there.
This is Ed's idea. totally.
Have i ever told you ive this fetish for guys with goatee? OMG. HOT. Like totally.
Zouk last night was sardine-packed. Even Mambo is freaking packed. The initial plan was to go down with Edwin while he meets his friend and i meet Tess after our 'date', but Edwin and friends didnt turn up in Zouk in the end. And initially the plan was just to club and go crazy, just the two of us. But Tess's boyfriend and friends came as well, so we were dancing in a group. Not high, not crazy, but still fun.
Lotsa familiar faces at Zouk last night. I saw Sally, Justin, Meiting, Royston, Shunxiong and friends, Zero, Weikiat, Benjamin, my sister's friend like Eunice and Kelvin, Ernest, and Jeffrey my lucky star who got so drunk i dont know what to do and how to take care of him. Still quite amazed by the fact that he could go around looking for me despite being so blur. Alvin is supposed to be there but he didnt turn up, Guoliang is supposed to be there but he didnt turn up either. =((
Meiting and I. When i saw her with Weikiat and friends she was already high.
Tess and I. The one im supposed to stick to all night, but it turned out otherwise.
Royston and I. Mr policeman who forced me to drink beer when im on hard liquor. grrrr.
Zero and I at the dancefloor. Freaking blur face.
This is the ultimate. Jeffrey and I. He was so damn drunk and he kept asking me to take a picture. But just look at him!! He cant even look straight and open his eyes and smile.
Shared a cab home with Shunxiong and friends.
The moment i got home at 4.30am and changed my status in msn to online, Raymond messaged me and we decided to head out for a drink. So without bathing, no nothing, i left the house again.
Had a short chat about an hour, 2 cans of drinks each, bitched around, and feel emo as he's going to enlist this Saturday. SO DEPRESSING!!
And to prepare himself, he went for a haircut. To get used to the botak look, he had a mohawk style. Cant really see that clearly in the picture but i screamed the moment i saw him in the car. It isnt that bad actually. Gonna miss this tall man here, all the late night suppers and chilling at the studio and all. Ahhhhh!
Oh yes, before partying the night away, I had a great time with Edwin. Dinner at Kenny Rogers, followed by drinks at Harry's and then we strolled to the merlion with another of his friend and chilled there.
This is Ed's idea. totally.
Have i ever told you ive this fetish for guys with goatee? OMG. HOT. Like totally.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 3:53:00 pm
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Tuesday, September 5
> picture blog.
Ive finally made up my mind to get the Sony Ericsson cybershot 3G phone, with 3.2 mega pixels.
And here are some pictures taken with this new baby of mine at the barbecue yesterday.
Denise and i at the pool.
Almost the entire class.
My class girls. Damn nice people!
Just some random pictures taken sometime back.
This one was taken when we're on our way to Baywater and my dear Ebony got emo.
Just look at my emo dog. There are times when dogs do get emo too okay.
And finally Ms Jinli decided to upload the pictures taken on National day.
Jinli, Eunice and i. Taken before the rest turned up.
Alvin and i. Havent seen him since graduation. Still looking as attractive. And so i heard the Japanese school girls went crazy, frantically trying to get his number when he was in Japan. LOL!!
And some random pictures of myself before meeting up with Adrian on Friday night.
More pictures to come when i receive em and am feeling less lazy.
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I met up with Kusa on Sunday night to chill at my vicinity. I havent seen him for almost 3 years and i felt really happy to see him again. Dont worry, though darker now, and fitter, but still very good looking sweets! Finally Kusa gave me a lift on his bike. Now its my turn to drive him around in that blue cefiro. But then again, maybe not.
Then i met that sickly boy with express delivery of sandwiches. And we watch 'The hills have eyes" on dvd. Pretty gruesome actually.
I just had a long chat with Shalyn on the phone. So many things to talk about. Cant wait to meet up with her on Saturday. We'll go crazy together i swear.
Meeting Edwin tomorrow in the noon before we both head down to Zouk together where we will meet up with our own friends. Cant help but to feel a little excited, i better not screw the day up. heh.
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I havent been eating lunch for days. No idea why but i just dont feel like eating in the noon. So i'll only have a meal a day. And i lost 2kg after almost 3 weeks of dieting. YAYNESS! Another 2 more kg to go!!
But i'll be meeting Wayne tonight for supper. TRIPLE YAYNESS. I miss him big time. Gonna talk till the sun comes out. HAA! Too many things to update to each other, to the extent whereby i dont know what to say already.
Tonight faster come.
Ive finally made up my mind to get the Sony Ericsson cybershot 3G phone, with 3.2 mega pixels.
And here are some pictures taken with this new baby of mine at the barbecue yesterday.
Denise and i at the pool.
Almost the entire class.
My class girls. Damn nice people!
Just some random pictures taken sometime back.
This one was taken when we're on our way to Baywater and my dear Ebony got emo.
Just look at my emo dog. There are times when dogs do get emo too okay.
And finally Ms Jinli decided to upload the pictures taken on National day.
Jinli, Eunice and i. Taken before the rest turned up.
Alvin and i. Havent seen him since graduation. Still looking as attractive. And so i heard the Japanese school girls went crazy, frantically trying to get his number when he was in Japan. LOL!!
And some random pictures of myself before meeting up with Adrian on Friday night.
More pictures to come when i receive em and am feeling less lazy.
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I met up with Kusa on Sunday night to chill at my vicinity. I havent seen him for almost 3 years and i felt really happy to see him again. Dont worry, though darker now, and fitter, but still very good looking sweets! Finally Kusa gave me a lift on his bike. Now its my turn to drive him around in that blue cefiro. But then again, maybe not.
Then i met that sickly boy with express delivery of sandwiches. And we watch 'The hills have eyes" on dvd. Pretty gruesome actually.
I just had a long chat with Shalyn on the phone. So many things to talk about. Cant wait to meet up with her on Saturday. We'll go crazy together i swear.
Meeting Edwin tomorrow in the noon before we both head down to Zouk together where we will meet up with our own friends. Cant help but to feel a little excited, i better not screw the day up. heh.
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I havent been eating lunch for days. No idea why but i just dont feel like eating in the noon. So i'll only have a meal a day. And i lost 2kg after almost 3 weeks of dieting. YAYNESS! Another 2 more kg to go!!
But i'll be meeting Wayne tonight for supper. TRIPLE YAYNESS. I miss him big time. Gonna talk till the sun comes out. HAA! Too many things to update to each other, to the extent whereby i dont know what to say already.
Tonight faster come.
sealed-with-a-kiss < 7:00:00 pm
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Sunday, September 3
> a whole new world
I came home last night at half past 5, feeling pretty cool when suddenly i got attacked by an acute pain which feels like gastritis right after i had my bath. It was so unbearable, it feels worse than period cramps.
Edwin's and Celine's 19 belated birthday dinner at Swensens last night was a good catching up. About 20 of us were there. Cant wait for the pictures. Left for movie with Zero after that while the rest went over to Cine and ive no idea what their programmes were after that. But im sure i enjoyed mine.
Snakes on the plane was totally dope. It has a proper story line and it scared the hell outta me at one part. I rate it 4.5 popcorns!
Haa, i so wanna catch lovewrecked, because i can stare at my cutie, Jonathan Bennett. Hello shalyn, arent u dating me out for that flick? =D
Im so gonna get a new phone today and im so freaking excited. I was thinking of getting Samsung E900 when Celine showed me her N73 and i thought that was pretty cool. But now Shalyn is trying very, like extremely hard psychoing me to get Sony Ericsson k800i.
I feel like an idiot about such gadgets because ive totally no idea how those things work. And shalyn is calling me a kum gong because of that. wth. But i still love her no matter what. HAHA. But i feel really stupid lah.
Im so tired, i think im going back to sleep first before i start preparing the stingray for tomorrow.
I came home last night at half past 5, feeling pretty cool when suddenly i got attacked by an acute pain which feels like gastritis right after i had my bath. It was so unbearable, it feels worse than period cramps.
Edwin's and Celine's 19 belated birthday dinner at Swensens last night was a good catching up. About 20 of us were there. Cant wait for the pictures. Left for movie with Zero after that while the rest went over to Cine and ive no idea what their programmes were after that. But im sure i enjoyed mine.
Snakes on the plane was totally dope. It has a proper story line and it scared the hell outta me at one part. I rate it 4.5 popcorns!
Haa, i so wanna catch lovewrecked, because i can stare at my cutie, Jonathan Bennett. Hello shalyn, arent u dating me out for that flick? =D
Im so gonna get a new phone today and im so freaking excited. I was thinking of getting Samsung E900 when Celine showed me her N73 and i thought that was pretty cool. But now Shalyn is trying very, like extremely hard psychoing me to get Sony Ericsson k800i.
I feel like an idiot about such gadgets because ive totally no idea how those things work. And shalyn is calling me a kum gong because of that. wth. But i still love her no matter what. HAHA. But i feel really stupid lah.
Im so tired, i think im going back to sleep first before i start preparing the stingray for tomorrow.
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Friday, September 1
> post examinations celebration!
LIBERATED!! And this calls for a celebration!!
I'm so happy today. Havent felt this happy for the past 2 weeks or so.
My exams are finally over. YIPPIE!! Though i know i screwed up today's paper terribly, but im not gonna think about it anymore. Just pray for no supp paper.
And i can finally enjoy the use of my personal computer in the comfort of my own room. Nothing feels better than this. Amber's back online 24/7 man!!
And im gonna get a new handphone because my current one totally died on me, with no warnings at all. So all my contacts stored in the phone itself is lost, and gone for good. So dear people, start smsing me your number today!
Oh yes, what phone should i get? Ideas anyone?
I only have 2 short weeks of holidays before my sip commence and im so gonna make full use of it. Day in day out every single day. Jotting down my appointments already. Packed all the way to next week! Im loving it.
Dinner with Adrian tonight to celebrate his belated 21st birthday. Surprise surprise. Im bringing him to a place, with very nice atmosphere and scenery. I hope he havent been there before.
Celine's and Edwin's 19th belated birthday dinner celebration tomorrow. After which im meeting zero for a movie. weeee!! I love movies. Its been so long since i caught one.
Then Sunday will be grocery shopping day whereby im gonna get the essentials needed for the barbecue on Monday!
Weeeee, Monday is my second class gathering. I love my classmates because we can all get along very well. Swimming in the noon at my new place before bbq. Cant wait!! Time to get myself brown!
No plans on Tuesday yet. But i'll be meeting Edwin (another Edwin) in the noon before we both head down to zouk where i'll meet my dear Tess to club and he meet his other friends.
And i'll be going to JB with Shawnie and friends some day next week!! WAH, damn shiok. Cant wait for it. Oh, meeting Kenny one of those days next week too.
And most importantly, i cant wait to meet up my bestest best friend. MS SHALYN TONG!! please date me out soon. I miss you!!
Oh, i gotta meet Raymond sometime next week for supper too. Gonna see him with hair before its gone. Ahhh, my supper khaki is gonna serve the nation, who's gonna chill with me when night falls man? So depressing.
Cant wait to meet up with Jeffrey too. Wanna have a feel of his botak head, and have a good laugh as well. Haa!
And mahjong khakis, its time for some overnight mahjong!!
Happening sia, im so overjoyed!
LIBERATED!! And this calls for a celebration!!
I'm so happy today. Havent felt this happy for the past 2 weeks or so.
My exams are finally over. YIPPIE!! Though i know i screwed up today's paper terribly, but im not gonna think about it anymore. Just pray for no supp paper.
And i can finally enjoy the use of my personal computer in the comfort of my own room. Nothing feels better than this. Amber's back online 24/7 man!!
And im gonna get a new handphone because my current one totally died on me, with no warnings at all. So all my contacts stored in the phone itself is lost, and gone for good. So dear people, start smsing me your number today!
Oh yes, what phone should i get? Ideas anyone?
I only have 2 short weeks of holidays before my sip commence and im so gonna make full use of it. Day in day out every single day. Jotting down my appointments already. Packed all the way to next week! Im loving it.
Dinner with Adrian tonight to celebrate his belated 21st birthday. Surprise surprise. Im bringing him to a place, with very nice atmosphere and scenery. I hope he havent been there before.
Celine's and Edwin's 19th belated birthday dinner celebration tomorrow. After which im meeting zero for a movie. weeee!! I love movies. Its been so long since i caught one.
Then Sunday will be grocery shopping day whereby im gonna get the essentials needed for the barbecue on Monday!
Weeeee, Monday is my second class gathering. I love my classmates because we can all get along very well. Swimming in the noon at my new place before bbq. Cant wait!! Time to get myself brown!
No plans on Tuesday yet. But i'll be meeting Edwin (another Edwin) in the noon before we both head down to zouk where i'll meet my dear Tess to club and he meet his other friends.
And i'll be going to JB with Shawnie and friends some day next week!! WAH, damn shiok. Cant wait for it. Oh, meeting Kenny one of those days next week too.
And most importantly, i cant wait to meet up my bestest best friend. MS SHALYN TONG!! please date me out soon. I miss you!!
Oh, i gotta meet Raymond sometime next week for supper too. Gonna see him with hair before its gone. Ahhh, my supper khaki is gonna serve the nation, who's gonna chill with me when night falls man? So depressing.
Cant wait to meet up with Jeffrey too. Wanna have a feel of his botak head, and have a good laugh as well. Haa!
And mahjong khakis, its time for some overnight mahjong!!
Happening sia, im so overjoyed!
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